Day 13

I did amazingly well today. I was regularly getting over 1000 points on some of them.


So this is a big day. I hit my half-way point in the middle of this session. I'm feeling pretty good about the program, though there are more external problems.

I got pretty badly sunburned on my back a few days ago while working in the yard. I'm still going to feel it for a few more days. Hopefully by this thursday it will just be reduced to a tan.

My parents also visited this past weekend. It was an overall pleasant experience, but we went to a restraunt that essentially guarantees overeating. And I did. So between that and the burn I had some difficulty sleeping. The pain also peaked over the weekend and at one point early Sunday morning I had destroyed two toothpicks trying to "bite the bullet".

I still feel a little fuzzy, though I managed to sleep alright yesterday. I've been up for the usual amount of time and was able to do the things I normally do before I start my session, but I really don't feel ready to do it. But I'm here. I'm writing. I'm preparing. I might as well get it done.


I just lost one where I clicked the second dot instead of the first. I realized that I had been staring at it and watching it instead of the first one. If I focus on the correct starting point, I can usually get the rest.

I couldn't break 6 at all today. I know it was possible, and I see that on Friday I almost made 7. No wonder people hate mondays.

Come on. Not data link, too. I can totally do 6.
There. See?

I just noticed that I don't see shapes in the grid anymore. I'm actually following the path of the dots.

It's a little unsettling like when I started out. I don't really know if I'm going to get it or not. But I think that's where I'm supposed to be, mentally.

Input panel is killing me right now. I'm hot. I'm uncomfortable. I don't feel like doing this.
Took a tiny break, got some water. Things are going much better.

Rough start, but that was my highest average and top score ever. I was able to work with a 9 digit number, though it was an easy one. Still!

And with that, I'm at my 50% mark!

I'm going to mix it up a bit. Let's try blind input now.

As the digits go on, not only are there just more of them to remember, but there are more confusing patterns. You hear things like 218 and 682. And was it 9595 or 5959? So keeping them straight in your head and remembering the directions when you're reversing and things like that compound the difficulty.

Man, I totally had that 9 except for one digit.

And again, first place on blind input! I might even get an extra robot today.

While I feel like I could have done better on the cube, I still crushed my previous scores.

I'm doing prett well on Stabilizer, though it feels like they're giving me "easy ones".

I think that feeling where you might be beyond your comfort level and you're succeeding because you can excel at only certain aspects of the task ("well, they asked me one that stuck out" or "it was only the 2nd to last one in, of course I remember it") might be one of the keys to Imposter Syndrome (where you feel like a phony and in any second the people around you could realize this and expose you). I think the key is that you have to be operating at your peak ability in order to feel it. And that by the time you feel comfortable with your difficulty level, you can likely handel something harder. Of course it's still incredibly stressful, so that moment of relief when you do feel the ground under your feet is absolutly necessary.

I do think that it's important to measure your successes and failures. It's really easy for me to write off individual misses and not realize that I had a large consecutive slump. So we have to mix mindfulness in performance with reflection afterward.

Speaking of impostors, that one was totally a guess. I've had a couple that were half guesses based on intuition. But I honestly had no idea where this was.

Another top score!

Sweet! Extra racer and then some. POINTS. And 3 victories.