Day 8

There will be no Day 7 update. Day 7 was kind of a disaster. My index went down, I logged off and on 3 times. There were internal and external problems... But Day 8 is here and starts right now.

I also had my first coach call yesterday. It felt really good. I feel much better about my problems with Data Room (3d grid) and Data Link (2d grid). I'm also going to fight off the part of me that doesn't want to take it slow.


Making sure to take a good breath before each attempt. Though I just caught myself saying "You can do this" which means that somewhere there was a part of me that didn't believe it.

I think I've got the whole leaning forward thing. It's much easier to breathe deeply like this. When you're reclined, you have a lot more work to do.

Still enjoying the sorter, though I might be coming up on my limit. I couldn't do 6 today, but at least I was taking 5 pretty well. I had been able to do 6 before, so tomorrow I'll nail it.

So the grid is 4x4. And the Sorter is 4x4. Data room is 5x2x2. Why is sorter easier?

I think my problem is that I see the shape. I can remember the shape just fine, but I have trouble with the pattern. I just need to remember to follow the pattern and not the shape.

Doing the 3d grid. There's a lot of chatter going on up here. None of it is important or really goes anywhere. Just junk. This is the kind of stuff that comes to me all the time and would really be nice if I could do my damn games and sit around thinking literally useless thoughts. They're not even that entertaining.

I just tried a "shh" meditation. I closed up, and thought "shhhhhhh" and the song in my head went away a bit. I then tried saying it out loud and it worked because I could focus on the sound. I opened up to play and the song came right back. I think these visual games have nothing for my auditory system to grab onto (in sorter I can at least say the number that comes up, here I count them in my head, but it doesn't really mean anything).

I just ripped through a bunch of them and now I'm on the blind input panel. I had been going pretty well, and I lost one that I really thought I should have had. Standing up and walking around really does help for some reason. But I just kind of want to get this over with.